An okay day (22/5/2013)

surprisingly today wasn't that lonely, maybe coz my day was packed..

I went facial in the morning and spend like RM75 coz i bought the sunscreen and also 2 boxes of mask...haha

When i got home after lunch, it was already 2.10pm...i bath and changed into my swim suit and left home at about 3.30pm..took the train down to Subang for a private class with julius, it was actually Rifhan's class but she had exam today so i replaced her..
Earned back what i spent in the morning...hahah..

I wanna do private classes but it's so hard for me coz i don't have personally transport...
working for Supersharkz is just shit.. ekkks!

After work, Julius drove me back to Shah Alam pool and i followed Ah Being back..wtf..Beng's driving damn scary wey..he was late for work edy in Klg Club coz his wife class ended late...so he sped..within 10 mins he was in Klg Club edy...HAHAHAH

Today i didn't talk much to my boy until now also we haven ft, coz he's not back yet..LOL

I miss him a lot.. waiting for him to come on9 now..
i'm going uni tomorrow le to hand in my assignment..so tired now..

Today LOVE rate = 100%

Same old thing (18/5/2013)

Today is Saturday again, it means working day, doing same old thing every weekend is so goddamn boring and knowing that my pay is still RM17.50 per hour makes me even more pek cek working for Supersharkz now..I've been with them for 2 years 3 months now..i'm pretty sure i've contributed a lot in the growth of their company too..

This is how they treasure their employees? seriously damn sickening...
I heard the new employed girl name Evelyn is there to help grow the company, she came up with all the new policies and Marilyn actually listened to what she said..

Julius told me, he feels so fed up oredy even Luqman said so, Luqman has been with SS for 6 years oredy and his current pay is only RM26 per hour...how to work la? work like cows and dogs but get so little..

I have no mood at all to work properly for them oredy... if i have a chance would quit and move to another swim school or do private classes...

Today n tomorrow, priya won't be around, so means i would be taking the Klang Club class, the normal 2 hour class in Pandamaran and a private class under SS at 11-12pm... 4 hours of work tmr in the morning and another 2 in the evening..

Pay me like punani but ask me to work so hard! If the company is growing, how can you actually put all your employees in this kinda position, should you treasure us more? without us, can your company actually grow till such position?
Fucktards la seriously!

Julius told me that Rifhan is suggest to Marilyn about her pay and if she doesn't acknowledge, she would prob be quitting oredy.. whats more to stay, she put in so much effort in helping SS seriously, more than me!

haiz...hate employers like that

Nothing much to say edy!

I didn't talk to boy much today since it's a working day for us and also.. i was watching vampire diaries just now..sad die me le...Season 4 ended edy...haiz! i can't take this! It's one of my fav TV series lo now have to wait for season 5...urgh!

Today LOVE rate = 80% (coz i ask him to bring me to his bro room to see the bro's new hair cut, he said he playing game)

Angry (4/5/2013)

Today is another day of work day...

Basically no contact till at night... the whole day i've been thinking of how to tell mum i wanna go out tomorrow...
and trying to plan things and all cause i know they'r voting tomorrow...i don't wan to clash with whatever time they wanna go vote..
and then Sab said she don't wanna go out early and so my mum ask me to follow hew out if Lionnel is coming to fetch her...you think i don't wanna go out early meh...i can't do anything about it right..my lies can only go that far...
you are so inconsiderate, giving me ur attitude at this point...dah la just now work time...so many of them replace classes and so full...i can't even handle things properly...i was basically very angry oredy the whole time..

I want to celebrate your birthday with you okay...i wan to treat ur mum n bro to a meal too and i wan it to be convenient for everyone's sake but heck..i have budget also one k...i know Shogun is near ur place but it's too exp for me furthermore it's on a Sunday... and also i don't wan to just treat them to any ordinary food..of coz i wanna bring them for something good and they have never tried before right..
some more you tell me can we don't go there after i made reservation... my patients edy running low yet still u say that...

I can spend another day with you full day after your birthday as replacement... i'll bring you for something else again after that to make it up...why must you be like that.. i can't drive and i can't do anything else for you edy yet you still like that... 

Lots of frustrations (2/5/2013)

Today was another day out with my bf...was at 1U looking for his watch...we had BBQ plaza and after that i went for my facial.

I spent like rm134 this ard buying the rebalancing serum cause of the black and white heads that have been infesting my right temple...so fucking frustrated till the point where i wanted to peel that part of my flesh off..
Bi waited for me for 2 hrs again for my facial...i love this bf la...he waits for me and doesn't complain or get angry or anything..who wudnt wan this kinda bf man...my man is JJANG!~

Hopefully this new serum i bought which cost me rm68 would work ba...sighh...i hate it...spend so much money yet income so little...i just wanna graduate fast and find a job which pay well..i think the fastest way dud be selling insurance...so i shud be focusing on that more now...i need to be rich..

After facial, went to bi's house to nap a while and had dinner, but didn't nap tho..was just fooling around again on the bed.. HAHAHA...dinner was simple as usual but so oily again...HAHAH..

After that it rained heavily when i wanted to leave and Eric's mum just came home, she was saying don't leave 1st, very heavy rain...so i stayed a while more and i asked bi to check out his auto cad courses cause he said he wanted to go back to study...
I've been thinking about it since just now, i mean it's definitely a good thing to go back to study but 
1. i don't know if he's ready to take on a full time study course .. 
2. Furthermore, he's 21 this year, to complete at least diploma takes 2 and half year...by time he graduate it dud really be too late.
3. Time consuming, so he can only focus on his studies and can't really take on a full time job and time spend with me dud def be lesser...(not complaining coz it's something beneficial)
4. Monetary issue when there is no full time job.. which leads to a lot of problems.
5. my wait would def be prolong, as long as bi is not earning that amount that i think is appropriate, i can't bring him home...

I know i shunt be saying all these coz it would affect his mindset but i just want him to think properly... If he decides to study i would support him... i know rain or shine, we'v gone tru too much to go our separate ways unless it necessary, unless there is no other choice.

At 9pm, we left his place to come home...i know i was extremely late already... I texted mum to say i would be a little late but no reply...At the Bukit Raja toll, she called and i told her i reaching soon. She didn't even say a single word and hang up edy... i knew it was a bad sign... I'm worried and frustrated of course..whenever these occurs i just feel like crunching up and hide in any hole i can possibly find...i don't wan to face all this all the time..my worries   is at its utmost level...anymore, i won't be able to handle it anymore...
I know my mum suspects of us being together or maybe she even knows but can't she just let me be... i deserve some happiness in my life...i studied so hard and i'm such a filial child that i always think for my parents...but this is what i get in life... 
I know i lied and al just to be with Eric but what choice was i given? I can't possibly tell her the truth as truth is now what she wants to hear..
I know my mum don't trust me, but what can i do as long as this relationship is hidden..

Thankfully say told me to be more careful as mum is watching at the door when she called me... she watches my back for me and i'm ever so grateful.. 

I'm so sad and angry at the fact that i have to live my life like that... my heart is so broken...
At times like this i feel like giving up but i know i can't..

The end...

Gonna sleep early..i'm tired and i have work to do tomorrow after i return from gym after class..

Today LOVE rate = 100%