An open letter to my unborn son

Woah, my last update was back in 2018 and Covid was at its peak! Today 9th Jan 2024, we are still going through Covid and just last night Tim told me, he has a mild sore throat and is worried that he might have caught it for the 3rd time and that he is worried he would passed it on to me at my 31 weeks of pregnancy! But Covid is no longer at its peak, it’s just a mild flu now.

And yes, we are pregnant with our 1st baby boy, Levi. Guess Elijah isn’t in the list anymore. 

I guess our timeline worked out quite well, reading back my time capsule, I mentioned that i hope I would be married and would have at least a child by 33. I am on track 😂. Married to Tim as expected, no doubts there 🤣 as I am typing this, my husband is sleeping soundly beside me at 10.21am on a Wed morning!?!? 😂 #whatswork #caneatone

Anyway, this post is meant to be an open letter to my baby boy, which we have only met through ultrasound. I feel so emotional writing this but I want to pin this down so I am able to look back and remember this is how I felt at this exact time.

Dear baby boy/precious boy/my son shine,

Mummy and daddy love you so much, we have yet to meet each other in person but you are constantly on our mind 24/7 since the day we found out we were pregnant with you on 3rd Jul 2023. Mummy is tearing up just writing this coz she had been waiting for you for the longest time. Mummy is also worried that she might not be enough for you. Mummy is worried for your health, every night we pray for you to be healthy this lifetime. 

We are probably 6 weeks away from seeing you, you would be full term by 37 weeks and we are looking to have you that week. Mummy n daddy are so close to meeting you and having you in our arms. We are so excited yet worried and scared at the same time. Please be kind to us when you are here, we will do our best in giving you the best. All we hope is for you to be healthy and kind.

Daddy has been talking to you since early 2nd trimester when you probably couldn’t even hear yet but daddy made it a habit to talk to you every night before bedtime. We talk to you even more nowadays, we tell you about our day and what would we be doing the next day, what we had for lunch n dinner, we even play Disney piano pieces for you, hoping that you would fall in love with Disney like mummy. Mummy hope when you are here, you will be easily calmed and soothe by our voices. 

We have already purchase 90% of your items, the baby cot should be arriving within the next week and daddy would be setting it up without mummy’s help. Daddy isn’t very handy and sometimes a bit too lazy for mummy’s liking but anyhoo I know it would be done cause it for you! 😜 Daddy gave mummy the best of the best during this pregnancy, what mummy wants to eat, daddy would sure deliver 😂 but it comes with a lot of ridiculous restrictions also. Daddy is always reading so much on google that he thinks everything is going to make mummy have a preterm birth so mummy had quite a bit of cravings that could not be satisfied this pregnancy. Biggest cravings of all time is Bak Kut Teh, you nv had a taste of BKT in mummy’s belly but we would defly introduce it to you when you are 1 years plus. It’s mummy staple cause she is from Klang 🤭.

When we 1st found out about you, mummy was very adamant on just having a caesarean cause so many friends around her end up having an emergency caesarean when they were trying for a natural birth. But mummy is in so much dilemma the past few weeks, she is thinking of this is the best she can do for you? Is mummy taking the easy way out to have you? Will you have a lower immunity because you are not a natural birth baby. Mummy always overthink and as she was talking to daddy last Sunday, she was bawling so much. Daddy said not to worry and just do what is best for myself but mummy don’t know what’s best for herself and also for you. So, mummy pray every night seeking for a firm answer from God, not sure if the final decision has come to mummy yet. Maybe mummy will know better as you are closer to your birth date. Anyhoo, mummy just want you to come out safely into the world, everything after is secondary.

We are counting down to the day we finally meet you baby L! Please be patient and wait till after CNY to grace us with your present. We have a lifetime with you baby boy. Mummy n daddy hope you don’t come out before your planned date. We love you so much and we hope you will always be happy, healthy and kind.

That’s all for this post. It 10.49am and mummy might want to take a short nap again before daddy wakes up.

Signing off,

Your silly mummy that loves you so much!